Wednesday November 18, 2009 - I'll be honored into Alpha Beta Kappa, http://www.abkhs.org/ for recognition in "outstanding GPA, excellence in the classroom, leadership, integrity, service in class, and participation in school activites."
Friday November 20, 2009 - I'm participating in the Secret Artworks program/exhibit http://www.artworkscincinnati.org/, downtown Cincinnati at the Westin hotel.
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About Me
- Justin Hite
- music. writing. performance. film. school. learning. love. heartbreaker. Myspace.com/JustinHiteArt
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
An Anniversary
i guess this will make it's way out there through all of the RSS feeds i have set up. who knows who will be reading this, and what they will think of me. oh well, the world we live in right now is full of madness, and chaos. so im sure my blogs wont really mean much in comparison to everything else going on. after all we're living in a world full of complete disorder.
my fears.
"i bartered tact for wit."
for sure. i traded my dreams of living in a van with 4 other dudes, traveling the country, playing shows in dirty bars and clubs, eating bologna sandwiches and having conversations with loved ones over the phone (in hopes of striking gold). after crucifying one by one, each of the band members (and more importantly, friends) i have worked with for leaving music and having babies & marriage instead, i did the unthinkable: i abandoned those who didn't appreciate me at the time, put the breaks on trying to be some sort of a rock star, and finally fell in love with the girl. i followed my heart on that one. to me, as passionate as i was about the music and art - i was even more in love with this girl.
had i known that moving to los angeles would have meant dealing with a shit-ass landlord from day one, financial ruin, and daily stresses that would later damage my love (relationship), and basically ruining everything I had been working for, would i still have gone? maybe. maybe not. i know there's a part of me that knows to NEVER give up, but also a wiser part of me that knows when something's not good for me - to stay away from it.
being in love means compromise between 2 people. love holds two lives together, and yet our dreams do not always coincide with one another. so i realized.
while i'm at it, some people will stand in your way of being happy (in love). i'm not sure why they do it, nor does it really matter in the end. it has something to do with condescendence, and thinking you know better than the next guy in line. but i guess the real question follows this notion. "If it's TRUE love, wouldn't it stand AGAINST these distractors?" IS. LOVE. ENOUGH?
the way i always saw it, I would find that one person and she would love me for who i was (both good and bad). not just enjoy having me around, but truly be MOVED and INSPIRED by me. i always envisioned this person as someone who was independent enough to do her own thing, as i'm doing my own. and someone who at the end of the day is so exhausted from her own daily work, that all she needed was for me to hold her in her arms - and that right there, would be enough to make her happy. forget about bills. forget about property. forget about all of these things that the "world" says you need in order to be happy. all of those things just get in the way of what is true. Love is all we need.
Take the movie "Fight Club," which i constantly see going on in every day life. we, as society BELIEVE that we need rich houses and cars to be happy. in the end, it's all crap. none of that stuff matters at ALL. so why in hell am i so obsessed with attaining these things? because i am programmed just like the rest of the guys out there to believe that if I dont drive a big car and have a big house and a big boat, that i wont find a woman to love me. and the truth is- many of them wont.
So i gave up on trying to be someone I wasn't. i appreciate and love myself. i am a fighter. i am a SURVIVOR. but at the same time, i am weak without love. i need it. and thats the beauty and art of my love. it pains me that some people won't ever understand this. the most valuable thing i could ever offer you is to need you.
did i fall in love with the wrong person? am i not good enough for love? Is love NOT enough? these are all questions that peer in and out of this mind. i guess there are certainly times when i feel quite the opposite. times i feel like everything is right where it needs to be, and i'm doing everything correct. like when i'm laying beside that person, and the entire world stops just for us, just for that one moment. i have never in my lifetime experienced that kind of joy, anywhere else.
and the times when i'm on my A-game. going to school. making the best grades i'm able to do. busting my ass when i'm OFF the clock. making all the connections in the working world (creative) that i can. being justin mutherfu*king hite- better than anyone else will ever do. and i know at the end of the day that i have inspired a few. people that read my blog, listen to the music that i love creating, the artwork i produce at school, the people i interact with everyday and night- the bars, venues, cell phone mobile posts, and on and on and on. i do it best.
this is me. i am a man of passion. i am a man of quality character. i am a lover, and a fighter. i am able to be broken. i won't last forever, and my heartbeat count is limited, as are my waking days. i would sail an ocean by myself for her. i would stand in front of a moving truck. i can not understand how anyone else could ever say that's not enough. or that this is not true love. To me, those people have never had to sacrifice for their love. Therefore, it makes sense that they wouldn't understand. Because I have. My heart is a s pure as they come. And so is my love.
and so, here i am. right back where it all started. one year later. april 13, 2009. 365 days after realizing i had fallen in love with her. if i had all day to spend thinking about this, would i come closer to a solution? who knows. but i have other challenges to overcome. i have mountains to climb, buildings to soar, and crowds to move. like i said, i know what it feels like when it's just her and i. i know what exists there between us. but i also see that the people in her life most concerned with "us," want us apart. and sadly, there's no room in my life for that kind of negativity. nor is there room for negligence of this love that i speak of. Those people's opinions mean so little to me, because they couldn't be more far from the truth.
feelings, emotions, hearts, and futures are all on the line. and i have known this for some time. why i chose to fight this battle is simple. i saw a good ending. i saw the light at the end of the tunnel. but then i started looking back and realizing i was the only one fighting for it. and that's simply unfair. Nobody deserves that. Especially not me.
they say character is defined as what you do when no one's watching. I learned a lot about that quote. I see how people have acted when I was not around. And while I'm at it, too many have passed on me and the wonderful things i have to offer. and looking back, i see how i passed by each one of them, and sort of felt sorry in the end - for them. i know in my heart, it's time to move on from this state of being, because it's damaged me severely. and that's going to take some time to repair. whether i relocate, re-invent my way of life, or become a ghost to your being, you can be sure i'm still moving forward.
true love is forever.
my fears.
"i bartered tact for wit."
for sure. i traded my dreams of living in a van with 4 other dudes, traveling the country, playing shows in dirty bars and clubs, eating bologna sandwiches and having conversations with loved ones over the phone (in hopes of striking gold). after crucifying one by one, each of the band members (and more importantly, friends) i have worked with for leaving music and having babies & marriage instead, i did the unthinkable: i abandoned those who didn't appreciate me at the time, put the breaks on trying to be some sort of a rock star, and finally fell in love with the girl. i followed my heart on that one. to me, as passionate as i was about the music and art - i was even more in love with this girl.
had i known that moving to los angeles would have meant dealing with a shit-ass landlord from day one, financial ruin, and daily stresses that would later damage my love (relationship), and basically ruining everything I had been working for, would i still have gone? maybe. maybe not. i know there's a part of me that knows to NEVER give up, but also a wiser part of me that knows when something's not good for me - to stay away from it.
being in love means compromise between 2 people. love holds two lives together, and yet our dreams do not always coincide with one another. so i realized.
while i'm at it, some people will stand in your way of being happy (in love). i'm not sure why they do it, nor does it really matter in the end. it has something to do with condescendence, and thinking you know better than the next guy in line. but i guess the real question follows this notion. "If it's TRUE love, wouldn't it stand AGAINST these distractors?" IS. LOVE. ENOUGH?
the way i always saw it, I would find that one person and she would love me for who i was (both good and bad). not just enjoy having me around, but truly be MOVED and INSPIRED by me. i always envisioned this person as someone who was independent enough to do her own thing, as i'm doing my own. and someone who at the end of the day is so exhausted from her own daily work, that all she needed was for me to hold her in her arms - and that right there, would be enough to make her happy. forget about bills. forget about property. forget about all of these things that the "world" says you need in order to be happy. all of those things just get in the way of what is true. Love is all we need.
Take the movie "Fight Club," which i constantly see going on in every day life. we, as society BELIEVE that we need rich houses and cars to be happy. in the end, it's all crap. none of that stuff matters at ALL. so why in hell am i so obsessed with attaining these things? because i am programmed just like the rest of the guys out there to believe that if I dont drive a big car and have a big house and a big boat, that i wont find a woman to love me. and the truth is- many of them wont.
So i gave up on trying to be someone I wasn't. i appreciate and love myself. i am a fighter. i am a SURVIVOR. but at the same time, i am weak without love. i need it. and thats the beauty and art of my love. it pains me that some people won't ever understand this. the most valuable thing i could ever offer you is to need you.
did i fall in love with the wrong person? am i not good enough for love? Is love NOT enough? these are all questions that peer in and out of this mind. i guess there are certainly times when i feel quite the opposite. times i feel like everything is right where it needs to be, and i'm doing everything correct. like when i'm laying beside that person, and the entire world stops just for us, just for that one moment. i have never in my lifetime experienced that kind of joy, anywhere else.
and the times when i'm on my A-game. going to school. making the best grades i'm able to do. busting my ass when i'm OFF the clock. making all the connections in the working world (creative) that i can. being justin mutherfu*king hite- better than anyone else will ever do. and i know at the end of the day that i have inspired a few. people that read my blog, listen to the music that i love creating, the artwork i produce at school, the people i interact with everyday and night- the bars, venues, cell phone mobile posts, and on and on and on. i do it best.
this is me. i am a man of passion. i am a man of quality character. i am a lover, and a fighter. i am able to be broken. i won't last forever, and my heartbeat count is limited, as are my waking days. i would sail an ocean by myself for her. i would stand in front of a moving truck. i can not understand how anyone else could ever say that's not enough. or that this is not true love. To me, those people have never had to sacrifice for their love. Therefore, it makes sense that they wouldn't understand. Because I have. My heart is a s pure as they come. And so is my love.
and so, here i am. right back where it all started. one year later. april 13, 2009. 365 days after realizing i had fallen in love with her. if i had all day to spend thinking about this, would i come closer to a solution? who knows. but i have other challenges to overcome. i have mountains to climb, buildings to soar, and crowds to move. like i said, i know what it feels like when it's just her and i. i know what exists there between us. but i also see that the people in her life most concerned with "us," want us apart. and sadly, there's no room in my life for that kind of negativity. nor is there room for negligence of this love that i speak of. Those people's opinions mean so little to me, because they couldn't be more far from the truth.
feelings, emotions, hearts, and futures are all on the line. and i have known this for some time. why i chose to fight this battle is simple. i saw a good ending. i saw the light at the end of the tunnel. but then i started looking back and realizing i was the only one fighting for it. and that's simply unfair. Nobody deserves that. Especially not me.
they say character is defined as what you do when no one's watching. I learned a lot about that quote. I see how people have acted when I was not around. And while I'm at it, too many have passed on me and the wonderful things i have to offer. and looking back, i see how i passed by each one of them, and sort of felt sorry in the end - for them. i know in my heart, it's time to move on from this state of being, because it's damaged me severely. and that's going to take some time to repair. whether i relocate, re-invent my way of life, or become a ghost to your being, you can be sure i'm still moving forward.
true love is forever.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Broken.
Easter Sunday
4-12-2009
They say god knows our heart.
he certainly must know mine.
26 years, and a heart thats been broke
god knows how many times.
im staring right into the sun
it's burning right into my eyes.
and yet i swear i wont look away
until someone whispers into my ear--
why i'm here.
the titanic was made for the rich
yet they still had room for the poor
it still all went crashing down
and our hearts are still at war
i know this road
i've been on it long before
i'll just get back to walking.
with this heart of mine that's broken
but still as rich as pure.
"The Wrestler," (Bruce Springsteen)
Have you ever seen a one trick pony in the field so happy and free?
If you've ever seen a one trick pony then you've seen me
Have you ever seen a one-legged dog making its way down the street?
If you've ever seen a one-legged dog then you've seen me
Then you've seen me, I come and stand at every door
Then you've seen me, I always leave with less than I had before
Then you've seen me, bet I can make you smile when the blood, it hits the floor
Tell me, friend, can you ask for anything more?
Tell me can you ask for anything more?
Have you ever seen a scarecrow filled with nothing but dust and wheat?
If you've ever seen that scarecrow then you've seen me
Have you ever seen a one-armed man punching at nothing but the breeze?
If you've ever seen a one-armed man then you've seen me
Then you've seen me, I come and stand at every door
Then you've seen me, I always leave with less than I had before
Then you've seen me, bet I can make you smile when the blood, it hits the floor
Tell me, friend, can you ask for anything more?
Tell me can you ask for anything more?
These things that have comforted me, I drive away
This place that is my home I cannot stay
My only faith's in the broken bones and bruises I display
Have you ever seen a one-legged man trying to dance his way free?
If you've ever seen a one-legged man then you've seen me
4-12-2009
They say god knows our heart.
he certainly must know mine.
26 years, and a heart thats been broke
god knows how many times.
im staring right into the sun
it's burning right into my eyes.
and yet i swear i wont look away
until someone whispers into my ear--
why i'm here.
the titanic was made for the rich
yet they still had room for the poor
it still all went crashing down
and our hearts are still at war
i know this road
i've been on it long before
i'll just get back to walking.
with this heart of mine that's broken
but still as rich as pure.
"The Wrestler," (Bruce Springsteen)
Have you ever seen a one trick pony in the field so happy and free?
If you've ever seen a one trick pony then you've seen me
Have you ever seen a one-legged dog making its way down the street?
If you've ever seen a one-legged dog then you've seen me
Then you've seen me, I come and stand at every door
Then you've seen me, I always leave with less than I had before
Then you've seen me, bet I can make you smile when the blood, it hits the floor
Tell me, friend, can you ask for anything more?
Tell me can you ask for anything more?
Have you ever seen a scarecrow filled with nothing but dust and wheat?
If you've ever seen that scarecrow then you've seen me
Have you ever seen a one-armed man punching at nothing but the breeze?
If you've ever seen a one-armed man then you've seen me
Then you've seen me, I come and stand at every door
Then you've seen me, I always leave with less than I had before
Then you've seen me, bet I can make you smile when the blood, it hits the floor
Tell me, friend, can you ask for anything more?
Tell me can you ask for anything more?
These things that have comforted me, I drive away
This place that is my home I cannot stay
My only faith's in the broken bones and bruises I display
Have you ever seen a one-legged man trying to dance his way free?
If you've ever seen a one-legged man then you've seen me
Monday, April 6, 2009
Things Poppin.
Right Now.
1. Reds, Opening Day 2009
2. WWE: Undertaker and Shawn Michaels deliver match of the year @ WrestleMania 25
3. Cyclones win the Division, again!
4. Stephanie Menchen photoshoot from 3/31/09
5. Coach John Calipari at Kentucky!
6. New Music by J:10!!!
7. The Upcoming Launch of my new website
8. I NEED A MACBOOK.
9. NFL Draft / upcoming Bengals Spring Training (end of April)
10. Taking Back Sunday in Cincinnati in May (Bogart's)
On the Radar: The new Manson record, "The High End of Low." (May '09)
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Tumblr interviews J:10!
March 29, 2009
Each week, Tumblr selects new artists "On the Radar," and we like to ask a few questions, to keep the rest of us informed. This week, we talk with Cincinnati-based artist, Justin Hite (aka J-10), as he shared his crazy life over the past year, new recordings, and also talks of his upcoming website launch.
Tumblr: So, J:10. What have you been up to? You seem to be staying pretty low, and under-the-wraps lately. What can you tell us about what's been going on in your life?
J.10: Well, it's so nice that you asked. After leaving Los Angeles, and returning home to Cincinnati, I had what most would call an epiphany. It was more like a cross in the road kind of feeling. Literally, the day I returned home, I was met with strife and confusion among those closest to me. 2008, in it's entirety was both the best and most challenging year I've ever endured. It was without a doubt the best thing to ever happen to me. However, things grew quite intense and I was forced to make a few changes immediately upon return, and very few people understand that nature.
Tumblr: We've been listening to the two tracks you leaked onto your Myspace over the past week. They're very interesting, and seem to be a departure from the recent work you did in Fiendish, as well as in Vatica. What brought fourth these tracks, and can we expect more leaks in the near future?
J.10: Yes, the 2 tracks I chose to release are part of a 5-track collection recorded over Spring Break. "If It's Worth It, You'll Go," was a result of a difficult separation I have endured, and that's really the first song I recorded out of this series. It was done in only 2 takes, and the recording is very raw. I wanted it to be real, and no different than if I were playing the song right in front of you, one on one. The other track, "beware," was recorded as intro music to my upcoming website, which I hope to launch in the coming days. And yes, more music is coming. There has always been a 'grand scheme plan,' so to speak, which entails hitting a recording studio, and laying down ALL of the material I've been writing over the past few years, and then, putting together a few other members to play out, live. Those closest to me will know exactly what I'm talking about. My album.
Tumblr: Can you give us any information on your (soon-to-be-announced) website?
J.10: Absolutely. The website is going to combine all of the elements I do. That being, Digital Media and Edits, Fine Art, Recorded Music, Lyrics & Poetry, Short Compositions, Photos, and so much more. This has been coming together for quite some time, and I expect to launch it before Summer. A Main challenge right now for me, is maintaining my academic good-standing. So, while being an artist and self-expressionist, I'm also a student of the game. Hopefully the website will help incorporate all of these elements.
Tumblr: What have been your main sources of inspiration, as an artist?
J.10: Well, growing up, I learned the art of struggle, and what it means. Art has always meant suffering, to some decree. I don't believe we would at all appreciate the beauty in this world, without first identifying with it's pain. Pain and suffering are part of Love. Like when Christ died on the cross. That's ultimate pain and sacrifice, and to me that has always been what art has meant to me. Capturing the bare-essentials of what becomes, "love."
As of late, however, it's been more stripped down. My art is about what i see. It's about who I talk to you every day. It's about the way people make me feel. And it's me firing back at them. I can always tell where I'm at mentally, just by paying attention to what music I will listen to. It never fails. Lately, I've been listening to the new Prodigy record ("Invaders Must Die"), some heavy metal bands - Underoath, Norma Jean, and the new Avenged Sevenfold. But just before that, I was drowning myself with Bayside's acoustic album, Tegan and Sarah's records, "The Con," and "So Jealous," as well as Dave Matthews solo record, "Some Devil." The return to heavier and more uptempo music, to me signifies my own letting go of the negative dwelling, and re-emerging as a person, stronger than before. Like a rising phoenix.
Tumblr: J-10, we thank you for joining Tumblr, and taking the time to answer our questions. We'll watch for the new music, as well as the new website.
J.10: Anytime. Remember, "Nothing worth having comes easy."
Stay connected with J-10: (Links)
VIEW J:10's TUMBLR PAGE!
J:10's Official Myspace page
J:10's Facebook page
J:10 on YouTube
Twitter @ Twitter.com/JustinHiteArt
AIM @ JToThe10
I'll leave the lights down low
so she knows I mean business
And maybe we could talk this over
Cause I could be your best bet
Let alone your worst ex
And let alone your worst...
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't (but I can't) stop this
anymore than you can
So honestly, how could you say those things
when you know they don't mean anything
And you know very well
that I can't keep my hands to myself,
hands to myself
I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't (but I can't) stop this
anymore than you can
This is all wrong and it shows
The certain things I promised not to let you know(not to let you know),
you've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat,
you've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat....
not to let you know
I never let you, never let you, never...
You've got this silly way
of keeping me on the edge of my seat
But you're only counting the clock against the train
And I'm miserable, oh
(I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat,
I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the...)
And you're just getting started
I'm miserable, oh
And you're just getting started
You've got me right where you want me
(let's never talk) Let's never talk, let's never,
let's never talk about this again because...
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
Anyway... yeah
Sunday, January 18, 2009
From The Ashes Of... Wherever.
8:43, awakened by the alarm clock, restless in my head. It's a work in progress, a masterpiece of some kind. The seconds tick away, while the minutes will undeniably add up to... something.
It's strangely familiar, I've been here before. "The Waiting Place," as I've heard it mentioned, once before. This is life in motion. We're all tiny little headlights on a car, in a fast-moving parade of night. And some of us are discontent.
Rebell.
Stand against the freezing cold that bites at your fingertips on a long walk home on Friday night. Take each step, and resist the urge to let this be the reason to just give in. "Don't call for help this time."
She's a fast-move parade of her own. She smiles as life visits her on her own time. Hiding only behind that which she cannot undo, she smiles helplessly, and aimless. She's content with right now.
I'm quite the negative to her positive. We balance this moment perfectly, in motion.
On this Sunday morning, the city keeps calling for me, and so I return to see her face. I went there last night, alone. I walked the cold, rainy streets, scared and vulnerable to whatever sin I could face. As I looked up into the massive city lights, and felt the cold rain collide with my weathered face, I realized at that moment, I was truly lost.
And so, I ignored the angry souls shouting for my attention, and ran in circles until I found my way back to my car. Thank God.
Today, she asked how I felt.
"Grey," I replied.
"You're looking to far into it," she muttered back, confused and perhaps disappointed. Or just simply irritated by my endless response.
"Good and bad are two concepts I simply can not commit to at this time," I let out.
And we both agreed.
I'm building my own nest of cinnamon and myrrh, where I will allow these useless thoughts to decompose on their own. And like the Phoenix, I'll too die. But only to explode into the brightest fire one could ever see, eclipsing everything, runing every last mundane fact. A rapture.
And then I'll rise.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phoenix_(mythology)
It's strangely familiar, I've been here before. "The Waiting Place," as I've heard it mentioned, once before. This is life in motion. We're all tiny little headlights on a car, in a fast-moving parade of night. And some of us are discontent.
Rebell.
Stand against the freezing cold that bites at your fingertips on a long walk home on Friday night. Take each step, and resist the urge to let this be the reason to just give in. "Don't call for help this time."
She's a fast-move parade of her own. She smiles as life visits her on her own time. Hiding only behind that which she cannot undo, she smiles helplessly, and aimless. She's content with right now.
I'm quite the negative to her positive. We balance this moment perfectly, in motion.
On this Sunday morning, the city keeps calling for me, and so I return to see her face. I went there last night, alone. I walked the cold, rainy streets, scared and vulnerable to whatever sin I could face. As I looked up into the massive city lights, and felt the cold rain collide with my weathered face, I realized at that moment, I was truly lost.
And so, I ignored the angry souls shouting for my attention, and ran in circles until I found my way back to my car. Thank God.
Today, she asked how I felt.
"Grey," I replied.
"You're looking to far into it," she muttered back, confused and perhaps disappointed. Or just simply irritated by my endless response.
"Good and bad are two concepts I simply can not commit to at this time," I let out.
And we both agreed.
I'm building my own nest of cinnamon and myrrh, where I will allow these useless thoughts to decompose on their own. And like the Phoenix, I'll too die. But only to explode into the brightest fire one could ever see, eclipsing everything, runing every last mundane fact. A rapture.
And then I'll rise.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phoenix_(mythology)
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